Most of you probably know me as the tall, always smiling, confident guy at Tyler Kung Fu and Fitness.
If so, I understand why, because that is who I am. I’m always happy to meet new people, and 99% of the time I’m in a good mood. I’m laid back and go with the flow (like the FU). The children that I teach look up to me. These are just some of my many influences that make me the person I am.
However, buried deep inside me is a little boy struggling to prove that I am the best.
When I played basketball for my high school team I was always trying to prove that even though I was less skilled and naturally gifted I was the hardest working player. In fact, during the summer I would go to the gym close to my house at 1 p.m. and play basketball until 11 p.m, only because the staff made me go home.
I loved basketball more than anything else in the entire world and it put me in a depression when I saw all these kids that had natural talent that I had to work my butt off just to have a sliver of.
Of course, I’m a determined person and I wasn’t gonna let anything get in the way of pursuing my passion. Then I moved to Terrell for reasons discussed in one of my previous blogs (Never Quit Never Lose Hope), and I just stopped playing basketball.
Then, on January 11, 2011 I started doing kung fu and I found my joy and passion. With my competitive-always-got-something-to-prove- mentality, I found something that is for me. I struggle with kung fu as well, because I feel I’m not good enough. I’m always training with people way above my level and experience, and of course, I get thrown around a lot. However this just makes me push harder.
Defeat is NOT an option, not even to someone better than me.
I’m competitive in everything I do and I hate losing more than anything. I’m confident because I have to be. I’m always smiling and happy because there’s no need to be in a bad mood all the time.
I am the little boy ever struggling to become a young warrior.